Wednesday, May 11, 2016

The Kids Behind The Blog {TKBTB V4}

Happy Mother's day! This is the second time mother's day and my birthday have fallen on the same day since becoming a mother! Hope y'all had a wonderful mother's day, celebrating you and/or your moms!

Hall Around Texas

1. What is something I always say to you?
Nikolai - Be quiet
Samara - 

2. What makes Mommy happy?

Nikolai - hugs
Samara - 

3. How do I make you laugh?

Nikolai - tickling
Samara -

4. What do you enjoy doing with me?

Nikolai - telling you how I like my stuff sewed (I imagine this means planning costumes and clothes!), eating with you, trying new things with you and doing your mom things with you.
Samara - (brings me a book, and snuggle cuddles into my lap) this

5. What is my favorite thing to do?
Nikolai - give hugs and sew costumes. and I like wearing costumes.
Samara -

I love my little guys responses. it was super cute. He got me with the liking of the sewing, and costumes are stressful but probably my favorite!

I tried a couple times to get Samara responses. The only thing I got a response from was asking what she enjoys doing with me. She is very much my "I don't know" little one but the reading response and snuggling into my lap sure made me feel special!

Until Next Time,

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Sunday Lately: Venting On a Tuesday {Week 70}

This last Sunday's prompt were Completing, Visiting, Repeating, Writing, Scheduling.
A little but of truth for me is in this post. This is not a feel good post, nor is it positive. I'm not in a feel good mood, nor a good place right now. Things are hard, life is hard. It's not meant to be easy but sometimes a little ease in life, like in our clothes, would be nice.

One of the few feel good things going on... I've been working on one of my unfinished objects/works in progress. I figured maybe getting some of these taken care of it might help me feel better, reduce clutter and make room for getting my craft stuff out of the craft room and into the master bedroom since it will take up less space. 

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These last few weeks I have had some friends come out and visit me. It's been great. I've gotten help with the dishes and the laundry. It's amazing the difference companionable help makes. Especially since I realized that I am suffering from post-partum depression. I haven't told everyone, and haven't talked about it with the husband yet. I know I should talk to him, and contact some people to help. But then it boils down to the fact that I feel embarrassed and don't feel like I can get to the sessions. Childcare, for one, is a big stress and anxiety issue for me and I have been avoiding calling. Of course, that also means I have to talk to the husband too and... Well, that's terrifying too since I am scared I wont have support or understanding, which is a lie I tell myself. I need to listen to those friends whom have visited me instead of those untrue thoughts.

I have been working on finding some positive thoughts to repeat to myself on days that are hard. Though, once those hard days come, I usually forget those thoughts and are faced fighting those ones that aren't true but demeaning my role as a mom and wife. Do you have any positive things you say to yourself when you feel down?

I haven't written much, if at all. I've been to worried that the depression would come out in the words and in my voice. It's hard to sound upbeat when the voice in your head is even monotone and lacks inflection. I was given a journal by an ex while we were dating. I used it to write a lot; poetry, good things, complaints, praises, hopes, disappointments, everything. Well, he read it and said he got it for me to write the good stuff. Needless to say, that and other reasons are why that relationship didn't go far. Since then I have a hard time writing (or even talking to people) when things aren't positive or feel good. So I sit with my thoughts locked in my head festering and effecting my attitude and relationships (like with my kids and my husband)... It's hard. How do you even start that conversation, especially when fear is ruling everything in your head?

It's my birthday on Sunday. I should have scheduled something. Goodness knows it is the only way that it would happen. But given the depression and anxiety and the little lies I have been telling myself, no celebration has been scheduled. Even thinking about it my anxiety goes through the roof and I feel sick to my stomach. It's on Mother's Day, my birthday. At one point in my childhood I had been told that Mother's Day would be celebrated instead of my birthday. I guess I dread the falling on the same day that has made this harder. And I feel sad that I probably wont be celebrating it because I haven't planned anything. I plan the parties for everyone else. For once I want someone to plan something for me without me having to do anything accept say yes or agree. What do I want for my birthday? To feel taken care of without having to feel like I have to be the one to do the taking care of, you know, like what us mother's do.

So, now that I have scared you all off...
What do you do when things get hard and your emotions are not in a good place? 
Sunday Lately with Blogger Tribe

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

The Kids Behind the Blog {TKBTB V3}

Hall Around Texas

Nikolai - 5 yrs 4 months
1. What is your favorite thing to do with your friends? Play Batman and Spiderman at the park, and my legos
2. Who is your favorite person? My friend Gorden
3. When playing outside, what do your ideal sunny day plans look like? I like to play superheroes
4. What do you like to do when it's raining? (Since April showers bring May Flowers) Stay out of the puddles and play in the rain
5. If you could plant a garden of anything, what would you plant? cactus

Samara - 2 years 9 months
1. What is your favorite thing to do with your friends? eat cookies
2. Who is your favorite person? Aurora (Nikolai started shouting names, and this was the last one he said)
3. When playing outside, what do your ideal sunny day plans look like? Swinging
4. What do you like to do when it's raining? I don't know
5. If you could plant a garden of anything, what would you plant? A tiny one so it can grow into a big one.

Kiera - 2 months 2 weeks
is working on rolling over! She's got tummy to back mostly mastered, now she just wants back to tummy!

Join in with next month's questions on May 11th!
What is something I always say to you?
What makes Mommy happy?
How do I make you laugh?
What do you enjoy doing with me?
What is my favorite thing to do?

Until Next time!

Monday, April 11, 2016

2016 Finish Along: Quarter 2: Goals {2016 FAL Q2}

Here are my goals for this quarter!

1. Labyrinth Lap Quilt... I was debating on the backing, but it works and it needs to be done.

The Berry Bunch: 2015 Finish-A-Long: Labyrinth Lap Quilt

2.  My band shirt memory quilt... I found a backing by andover fabrics! It's perfect! There is no reason for this not to get done now! Ha!

The Berry Bunch: 2015 Finish-A-Long: Band Shirt Memory Quilt

3. This is little lady's baby shower quilt. From 2013...

4. This circle quilt. It was supposed to be for a MQG fabric challenge... It has sat in my sewing bag 

The Berry Bunch: 2015 Finish-A-long: Circle Quilt

5. These are supposed to be some Peasant Tops pattern by Tie Dye Diva Patterns for little lady. I know they are now too small for her, but I could still use them for this next little one coming, even if they are a 12 month and 18 month size!! 

The Berry Bunch: 2015 Finish Along: Peasant Tops

6. This was supposed to be Little Man's Going to Grandma's/&or/Grandpa's over night bag. It is supposed to be the Dorothy Day Tripper by Swoon Sewing Patterns (affiliate links) ... 
7. If I have enough left over I also want to make a Tiny Explorer Backpack by Diedelbug Handmade for him when we go to MOPs meetings, the Zoo, and anything else that seems to fit with learning and fun. ;) Only problem is, he doesn't stay over anywhere and we no longer go to the zoo (I haven't renewed our membership). I still want to do them, and we miss the zoo.

The Berry Bunch: 2015 Finish-Along: Dinosaur Bags

I've carried over this list since 2013! Don't believe me? check it out! Finish-Along
Sad, right? I know! same things over and over. At least this time I have the excuse of a little baby to take care of! Right?!? No?

Wish me good luck! ;)

Linking up!

2016 FAL